Money Money Money Money....MON-EY!

That's a song by the way, at least I'm pretty sure b/c I keep singing it in my head.
Its always about the money.   I just finished my budget for the rest of the year. And now I'm depressed. ha! Having a 2nd job is a big time bummer, but its definitely helping with... you guessed it.... money!  
I'm at a point where I don't know if we'll have to do any treatments yet, so I'm realizing that I have to start saving up for expenses for towards the end of this year. Treatments would essentially start in Sept and go all the way until we have a baby (or not). B/c of the mess I was in the last couple of months, I've had use my flex spending.. so that's quickly dwindling.
Meanwhile, we're still not done projects on our house. DH is taking care of that, leaving me to worry about the bills, including my shiny brand new car payment. I've been getting these small medical bills too. So annoying. Thankfully, and I consider this a miracle - my DH and I have never really fought about money. It's always a conversation. I mean sure, we've had a spat or two, but nothing we didn't get over that afternoon. I only get stressed about it when I sit and stare at the screen looking at these figures. Wondering how I'm going to do it... do I need to add more hours at the 2nd job? or maybe not buy coffee every day?  lol. I'm getting better at that.

As far as treatments and baby making... I'm kind of shocked how "ok" I am right now in waiting a few months before trying again, and waiting to do treatments. I can remember crying b/c my regular endocrinologist told me that I have to wait 9 weeks till my thyroid leveled out. But I'm here... in the "now"... and I'm completely ok with that. Though I am starting to stress about my weight. Making a change to the diet is more harder than it used to be. I've got the working out thing -down- so now its onto getting that diet thing.... down. For the last couple days I've been addicted to chips & dip. Sour cream and onion chips with sour cream and onion dip. Ew? noooo way. I'm actually considering buying some on my way home to eat before going to job #2 tonight. Yep... I'ma do it.

So anyways.. what else. I'm so boring now.
I'm kind of getting excited for my trip to South Carolina. My lil'bro is graduating from Coastal Carolina, so we'll be in Myrtle Beach. I'm driving by myself, meeting my mom and family down there. I'm a little nervous to drive by myself only b/c I've had a bad experience making the drive before (DH and I were long distance for almost 2 years, I was in SC and he was in MD, so I would make this drive about once every other month - - one time I had a homeless or drifter bother me for a ride and wouldn't leave me a long, kept hanging around my car as if she was going to jump in my car last min or waiting for me to leave my car to steel it. weirded me out for sure). But at the same time, it will be nice to have some alone time before going into an awkward weekend. See, my parents are divorced and it did not end very well. Any my dad is going to be there, I think alone and staying at the same hotel. That means I'll have to hang out with him. We don't have the best relationship, or really any relationship (i.e. see previous post about Christmas). It will all be interesting. Then I'll drive home alone, and decompress from the weekend.
I'll most likely work every single day and night so I don't lose any hours. But.. I have to remember, I rely on that extra paycheck.

I guess really that's it... Until next time my friends!