Just Begining

I dunno. I have this feeling of uneasiness and anxiousness right now. I've just finished reading some other blogs, and even though I should feel comforted, I don't. At least not right now.  I think today is a 'bad' day. My thoughts and emotions are getting the best out of me. Out of all the blogs I read (side note, I should give some blog love and set up a list..  will work on that, because I love all of you!), no one seems to be in the spot that I am in (haven't started treatments yet). And some of you have babies. Which is amazing, and I love to hear it. I love it when there are so many success stories, which is why I am prone to read them all. I think its because sometimes I just get really overwhelmed with this and its so easy to get down on yourself.
I am patiently (huffing and puffing) waiting to go get my blood tested to see if my thyroid is agreeing with the new dosage. I can not move forward with treatments until my overactive thyroid has settled down. If it doesn't. I'm pretty sure I'm going to break down. I feel like I've been waiting so long, why can't this be the easy part?
#Idigress

So, we're 6 days into the new year, which means another year older. I mean, I really freaked out when I turned 30 (I'm 31 now, 32 in June). I thought FOR-SURE I would have had at least one child by now. My husband and I have never once (well.. the 1st time then half way through took it off) protection. I've never been on birth control. And have never once, even had "the scare."  My mind cant help but wander.. is it really going to happen, how long will it take, will it happen on the first cycle because God knows I've waited 11 years for this? 

Now, with that said. I am truly hopeful, I really feel like this is the year. I was even kind of excited that it is finally 2015. I just know it. I want to be telling you my crazy stories about clomid, and how bad the needles hurt and my new nick name for 'the wand' - which will be "the magic wand."


Moving on...
Ugh, you guys. Today it snowed, and you'd think there is 5 feet of snow (it was only like 2 or 3 inches) the way the roads were. I was over 2 hours late for work -here is what my little tiny two door car drove through this morning. And now I get to drive home in it. I'm hoping they've cleared off by now. Snow is nothing new for this area.

 

So what else is new. I started the low carb 'life style' thing to try and lose some of this gut. I'll keep you updated on that. I'm loosely following the Atkins diet. I'm not sure I can go that extreme, but I know if I lower my carb intake, and keep my protein high it will be fine.

 

I started my 2nd job last night at the g-store. It was mostly just training videos and stuff. My next shift is tomorrow, and I actually get to scan food! Exciting stuff.

 

I guess that's about it for now. Oh, by the way. I'm CD3 *sad face* another cycle gone by.