TWW Journaling Part II

I feel like I can't start my day without some reflection, so I'll go on with the second set of questions, and maybe get some things out of my head this morning.

After you met your husband, how did your dreams change?

• Hmm.. See this is hard! I'm having to really use my head and think about these things. I'm going to go with reviewing my life path. I had moved to South Carolina when I was finished with the 2 year community school. I didn't have any other connection to Maryland at all, my new life was in South Carolina, or beyond. I thought, welp - I'll meet a nice young southern man and get married and have lots of children. Or move more south or even west. I never really had a strong connection with my family (more on that later I suppose, my mom did/didn't raise me (gave up?) so I became super duper uber independent) , so I was always able to just pick up and move anywhere, and that's what I did. I LOOOOOVED SC. I loved the weather, the atmosphere, being closer to the coast. Everything. When I had gone home for a spring break trip, I went on a date with him - the timing was perfect and we decided to start dating and became boyf/girlf. The drawback - was that he still lived in MD and didn't have any plans to move (yet) and I lived in SC. We dated for almost 2 years long distance. And it was very hard, and we almost broke up a couple of times. Towards the end of the 2 years, he decided to move down to SC to be with me full time. That only lasted a few months because he was offered a great opportunity back home and off he went. So where did that leave me? I picked up and moved back home. It was a very hard decision b/c I felt like moving back home was giving up on everything I had worked hard for. Almost like giving up, a failure. I struggled with that for awhile. But being with him made everything better. 

Did you begin to want something different in life?

• Off and on, yes. But I think that's where the ups and down of a relationship come from. There were times where I wish I was just alone, living by myself and not having to 'answer' to anyone. That's where my struggle with my independence comes from. I'm not used to relying on someone or having someone rely on me. I'm super duper independent, so why aren't you too? 

Is he the man you had always seen yourself with?

• Hands down - yes. From the day I met him I knew we had a connection. Whether is was a friendship or a relationship I just had a feeling I would have this man in my life in one way or the other. 

Describe your relationship while dating. How did it change after marriage?

• There was definitely more sexy time. For the first 2 years, we only saw each other every few weeks. And this was during the "AOL" genre, and no face time or anything like that. After marriage - nothing really changed. 

Since we're talking a lot about marriage I thought I'd share a few photos when we did get married. Because of the lack of connection with families, we jetted off to an island and it was just the two of us. It was AWESOME and I would do it over again 100 times. 

We were the Sandals couple that you see on TV except that I didn't jump in the water. 

I was hungry! and maybe a little drunk from all the champagne. 

So baby stuff. I'm 4dpo. And I'm still in a strange place of peace. I had a great workout last night. Today I have to work both jobs. Tomorrow and Thursday, Job#1 and workout/housework. Friday & Saturday both jobs. Good busy week. Then I'll only have to get through one more week before blood test. Though I am kind of worried that I'll be getting my period sooner than what my nurse thinks... I guess we'll just have to wait and see...  

On that note. I'm ready to start my day and tackle these journal entries. Hoping everyone had a solid good day as well. 

Until next time!