10/23 Beta #1 214 @ 13dpo/cd26 ~ Results-Timed Trying, triggering on Oct 8th
10/26 Beta #2 747 @ 16dpo/cd29 ~ 72 Hours
10/28 Beta #3 1448 @ 18dpo/cd31 ~ 72 Hours
Today I'm 4 weeks and 2 days. I'm staring at these numbers, and I still can't truly believe it. I need to pick up those books again and start reading. I even dared myself to open my baby app back up (pregnancy +), but I haven't moved the app from the 'hidden 3rd page' on my phone to the main screen just yet. Why is it so hard to accept? Why is so hard to move past the big "what if"? Will I always feel like this? I never really knew if I'd see another positive. But I think I'm doing the best I can, its still day by day, appointment by appointment. And I'm sure my feelings will change once I see that heartbeat of his. (DH has always thought we're having a boy 1st). I will finally see that its real and that he's there.
I've already told some people. People who I see everyday that I just can't hide my smile from. I've told my bosses at job #2, but I've waited until today to tell my boss at job #1. And I'll have to tell her to keep it a secret this time. Last time, she told one person, then that person told the next, etc etc. So when I did lose the baby EVERYONE knew and it was humiliating.
What am I feeling?
Definitely the boob tenderness, at some points in the day its worse. And I feel like they're 'fuller,' not necessarily bigger yet.
Bloating, and gas (more burps than anything)
Headaches.
A few cramps here and there, more like a heaviness.
Mixed bag of constipation and looseness.
TIRED. Like, I'm probably going out to my car at lunch to take a nap.
Plans for the rest of the week. I'm trying to focus and get a lot done this week at job#1, but its not working. I'm desperately trying to get done these bank reconciliations, and I don't have the energy to research any of these variances. ugh.
I don't work job#2 till Saturday, so it's great that I can chill out this week. I do have a training planned with my personal trainer on Friday. I'm hoping he'll read up on prenatal care. But I don't expect to do anything hard core from here on out.
This is all I can manage to write at this point. I'm just staring at my screen, so I'll end it now.
If I don't get back on here, have a wonderful weekend to all.
Until Then - -
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WOW!!!! What awesome BETA's!!! YAY!!!! I can't wait to read back on your journey a bit! :) So I'm assuming you transferred two! Can't wait to see how many!!! Its looking good! And BTW, I have a big mouth too! However, since our last loss, DH is making me wait until HB. IT IS TORTURE talking to my mom! I want to tell her SOOOO bad! Maybe when we get our first beta.... :)
ReplyDeleteBelieve it or not this cycle was timed trying. I had 4 follys ready when I triggered. I have a big mouth too and I'm going to regret it if it doesn't pan out. But I haven't told family yet. Trying to hold out, like u, for that precious hb
DeleteCongrats! That is awesome!
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